[Works] Gone

As someone else and I walked along the river bank in a windy afternoon, memories faded back in mind like it all happened yesterday. The first time and the last time feeling nervous going on a date with a person, whom I knew so little.
Winter break, between the hospital and home I went. You saved me from endless nightmares fearing that life would break into pieces or slip through my fingers when I wasn't paying attention.


We were so sure how the script would be written yet so young that we dared to act as we pleased instead of following the rules. So it all went right in the beginning, but turned out to be a mess or a so-called tragedy. And the more I thought about us, the more I figure out how similar we were comparing backgrounds, habits, character, etc. To be honest, I'm so proud to notice the similarity we share and I knew exactly how unique we were.

We smiled when we heard "Payphone" as we wandered around the city, we shared the same taste of food and similar taste in music, we loved to watch football though we cheered for different teams. We used to laugh and criticise when we saw people wearing Barca shirts, and cheered when we saw Manu and FCB winning. You knew the world much better than I did, and with you I had a broader view and discovered things extremely beautiful. It was real, the thoughts we shared, the paths we walked through together, the hands we held, the dreams we wrote down, the plans we made, and the warm hugs after a long tiring day. Postcards, blogger, line messages, Facebook messages, Skype, Instagram posts, all of a sudden became memories, recording the words and images that meant the world to us.  I was never satisfied, and I never really gave anything. Sorry for being too selfish.

Nevertheless, we had something pure and precious. The word with four alphabets starting with "L" is a strong word, I seldom say, still I'm keeping my promise that it means forever lasting. And finally after a while I'm certain to say I'll forgive you for whatever you've done, for you blaming me on your Facebook timeline, for whatever happened, for our childishness as well as your broken promises. (And mine as well)

I took it serious while you didn't, and I gave up while you did. Thank you, for the endless text messages, good morning and goodnights, the courage you gave me when we were miles apart, the time we spent together. I did love you, and perhaps deep in mind I still do, certainly I will too, in a different way, wrapped with blessings and thankfulness.

And I'll miss you for sure, my best friend, my beloved one, my dear.
Thank you for bringing me the best things in life.